is the one that last the longest,
hurts the deepest and feels the strongest...
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May 2, 2010It was late in the afternoon when I woke around 4:30 that I received an sms from my cousin asking if I want to watch IRONMAN movie at Robinsons Galleria and Bar hoping afterwards with 2 of his younger brothers.I was so depressed for the past few days, caging myself unto this uncolorful room. And so, I called their landline kc tag hirap mode nako sa load and said YES. Got a good seat for a 7:20pm movie. But since we arrived early around 6:40, we decided to grab burgerking. Having grilled BBQ bacon mushroom/melt and medium size HI-C apple for my dinner… Masarap na pla BK.. hahaha.. Kc I never like the taste of it before… Anyways, middle of the movie someone called… (buti nakaalala pa sya)… I was not going to answer it nalang sana cause I cant still get over what happened and what she did. But yes I answered. Dull and cold I talked…and hanged the phone cause I was going back to my seat. A mixture of emotion run into my thoughts, bothering me while watching the movie.
Kung alam mo lang sana kung gaano mo ko nasasaktan sa mga nasasabi mo, kung alam mo lang sana na sobrang lungkot ko, kung alam mo lang sana na hindi ako gaya ng pagkakakilala mo saken before na may babae na kasama, kung alam mo lang sana na hindi ako isang lalaking Pokpok at kung alam mo lang sana lahat lahat… I said to myself…
I knew from there-on, she sends sms, but until now, I didn’t bother reading her message… why? Cause I know her message could hurt me agian. I was already in pain and wanted to maintain to that level. Baka hindi ko na makayanan if I read her message.
After the movie, Time for the drinking session. We hop to Shell station first para convoy nalang towards Home depot where bars are located. There its annoying that the whole place is large, we couldn’t get any parking slot but finally we did. Hanging out on one of this bars, Catching up with stories and what’s been happening. I immediately ordered 3 bucket of San Mig lights, 1 pitcher of VODKA BULL and sisig. My cousins orders a bucket of Coors Light. I wanted to get so drunk but even so, I didn’t have the courage to share the pain to my cousins maybe because I’m the kind of person who kept stories to myself.
Having myself so drunk, one of the my youngest cousin who’s with us told us that he is playing poker… The real poker… So I ask how, where, when. He said, there’s been a tournament like that is being held at Metrowalk now til the end of MAY. So I said, ok let’s try playing after this session.
It was already 1 am when we paid for the bills and opt we go to Metrowalk. There it was organized by pagcor pala… No tables available when we arrived. It was full of gamblers as we waiting to be called for our seats.
Guess what? I WON! hahaha… by how much?… P90 pesos! hahaha… yeah, I know you’d laugh! hahaha… pero naman I was loosing the deal so I decided to stand up cause I know its not my lucky day. tapos senglot pako, my eyes are pretty closing up and was thinking that maybe I was drunk. Afterward I decided to go home around 2:30am. ahead of my cousins since they were still playing and winning I hope. Arriving at home at 3:00 medyo bangag.. I ran in this room and lay my back on the bed. openning my door just incase my mom wokes up and said Let’s go for the Manaoag Trip.
Pro un nga, siguro since they notice I was drunk, they were thinking of not pushing through with the trip. So ayun natulog nalang ako ng diretso without changing my clothes.
Woke around 1:00pm today, had my lunch (Lomi soup) made by my mom. and here blogging.
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